I can never be who i am….
and that is the real tragedy.
I frighten to be someone
Yet I am portraying someone that I’m not.
I used to be fearless…
but it was a childhood memory.
I am not what I am…
I used to.
There is a demon inside me…
and it’s not just a demon with malevolent potential.
He is much worst, he possess me!
He torment me “that i am not good enough”
He want’s to suck all life from me.
He wants to destroy me in everything He have
And challenge me from everything I haven’t.
I am not a good “kid”
But maybe maybe i’am done on trying.
I care nothing in this world…
In preachers way I said I am nothing.
I used to care but
I lose the intimacy to feel.
I laughed a fake laugh.
I smiled a fake smile.
even cries, and the anger and pain are lose in me.
I want to destroy myself…
and everything that surrounds me.
And I’m trying not to